Backwards

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

So I never planned to get pregnant before I was married or get married while pregnant. I was trying to do things in the "correct" order. But then there was that fateful day when my doctor told me I was pregnant. I cried.

Yes you all I cried my eyes out. Not because I was scared, though I was, but because this was something I had wanted for so long. If you have been around these parts for a while or followed my blog before the change you know I was married before. And M and I tried to get pregnant. We did not avail. My body was against me. I was on chlomid and it just didn't work. I simply would not ovulate. Looking back now, I can see a small miracle at work. Shortly after round 5 of chlomid M and I were over. Do I blame the stress of trying, no. We were just not meant to be.

But, there I was 30 and convinced I would never have the one thing I wanted the most: a family.

Fast forward a year and half and there I was in my same doctor's office and he was telling me, after three tests, I was getting the greatest gift.

Sure there were pangs of oh no and what will people say. And the obligatory "knocked up" "shotgun wedding" smirks. But you know what? This is my life and this baby was made with the utmost love. Sure we fast-forwarded our timeline a tad, but the thing is, we are more in love and more in tune with each other now then ever.

So who is to say that doing things backwards is well, backwards. We are loved, in love and love this baby. And that folks is all I need.
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8 comments:

  1. JennNovember 5, 2014 at 7:01 AM

    Hey, who cares what others think and say?? Like I told you all along, the people who matter, won't care or judge. YOU have to do things for you, no one else. Everything happens in the right timing, even if it wasn't what we planned...there's always another, greater plan at work. I'm so glad that you're happy and got your wish of having a family, and I'm SO excited for you!!!

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  2. P!nkyNovember 5, 2014 at 7:06 AM

    Those 'freaked out tears' quickly became 'hooray tears' and we began the celebration of baby on the way. Timelines are just ways to stress us out and so we just need to chuck em. I'm so thrilled for you, your husband to be and your precious lil family. Judging Judies are going to have something to say, no matter what, but you know what, who cares! You're happy and the people that love you most are happy!

    Love you and so excited to watch you marry the man of your dreams!!!

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  3. Law_FalNovember 5, 2014 at 7:22 AM

    I'm so happy for you. I've been reading for a while and I promise you I cheered at my desk when I heard the news! F- what other people say girl. The Lord blessed you beyond measure and if anybody can't see that they need an eye exam. It doesn't matter what order things happen in as long as they happen. Nobody has a straight path and even if it has some detours and road blocks all that matters is that final destination. Again I'm elated, inspired and super happy for you hun!!!!! :)

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  4. Georgia GlamNovember 5, 2014 at 9:31 AM

    I've been a long time follower, so trust me when I say CONGRATS!!!! :) As for "shotgun" wedding status, who cares?!?!? I was in a shotgun wedding and it was the MOST fun I've ever had as a bridesmaid, and was there anyone standing around talking about the bride she had a small baby bump? Nope, the room was filled with love and joy. In the end, the big man upstairs has a plan, and while it might not have fallen in line with YOUR timeline, it fell in line with His! When are you finding out what you're having?? Can't wait to find out if its bowties or tutus! :)

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  5. Leslie Lukens MartinNovember 5, 2014 at 9:45 AM

    Such a testament to the whole, "Everything happens for a reason!" saying! The people that matter will share in your joy/excitement without any judgment...they know that all that truly matters is your health and happiness! Enjoy this special time...and don't give a second thought to what anyone thinks!

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  6. holliNovember 5, 2014 at 12:54 PM

    My parents were 8 months pregnant with me when they got married. There are No Rules!! Its all about what works for you.

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  7. JessicaNovember 5, 2014 at 1:05 PM

    I had a long thoughtful comment all written out...And then it didn't post. Boo:( So here we go again:

    While everything may not be following the exact time line you always thought it would, that's the true beauty in life - the best things often happen in the least expected/most surprising of ways! Our little nugget was as much of a surprise as your precious bean, and now look! We get to be preggo together! Yay! :) I can't WAIT to see pictures of you in all your bridal glory - bump and all. And then full speed ahead with the baby planning! Love you friend!

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  8. CarolynNovember 5, 2014 at 5:44 PM

    This is one of those amazing "thank you God" moments for sure! Going through all of that made you embrace and appreciate this awesome miracle that much more! Plus it's with the guy you're really meant to be with, which makes it even better!! I'm so very happy for you!

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